Last year, was a rough year for me. So much happened, so much changed, and I was confronted with so much. In the beginning of the year, I was especially confronted with my weight.
I graduated in May 2011, and my weight had tipped to an extremely high point, and my health, to a very low one. It took me 5 years to graduate, and I made it the finish by the skin of my teeth. I worked night shifts, stayed in my car, and worked full time to make it happened. At the same time, I also sacrificed my health in the process. After, I just slept and tried to recovery mentally, but so many years of abuse on my body, had taken a toll that rest could not fix.
I got sick, as normal, and lost my voice, which was better than the year before, where I almost came down with pneumonia but the fatigue was unbearable. So at the beginning of 2012, I decided to go to the doctors for a general check up, and to finally face what I had been avoiding for so long.
I went on February 1st, 2012 and my results were as follows:
Weight: 260 lb (weight on Jan 11 was 261lb and Dec 2012 265lb)
Blood Pressure: 114/72
Diagnosis: Asthma, Allergies, and Fatigue
Further Tests: Full Blood Test
Blood Test Results:
- Vitamin D extremely low: 14, with standard range 30-100
- Thyroid Normal
- High cholesterol 210 (range <200)
- Triglyceride OK 115 (range <150)
- HDL 49 (range >/=40)
- LDL 138 (range <100)
- High Density Liproprotein 4.3 (<4.3)
- Glucose, fasting 83 (70-99)
So I joined a gym, and started on my way. I tried learning by myself, and lost 20 pounds on my own, but it stopped after a while... Then I got an opportunity to join a a bootcamp, and I began really changing.
I just recently went back to the doctors and here are the results for 12/6/12
Weight: 235 lb
Blood Pressure: 106/69
Further Tests: Full Blood Test
Blood Test Results:
- Vitamin D 31 (range 30-100)
- Thyroid Normal
- Cholesterol 172 (range <200)
- Triglyceride 103 (range <150)
- HDL 48 (range >/=40)
- LDL 116 (range <100)
- Glucose, random 92 (70-140)
Now, this is just the physical, health part of it. There is sooooo much more that went on in my head.... emotionally, spiritually.
Mostly, I had to get past debilitating shame and embarrassment ... I knew that in trying to do the same exercises that others do, I would look like a fat person trying to keep up with athletes. Like the Rhino at the end of the herd in Jumanji. It is terrifying.... you feel exposed, and so vulnerable, especially because there is really no pretty, or dignified way to exercise. But I also knew that I could either let that stop me, or suck it up and work with it. I decided to suck it up, and told myself that if I just keep going, one day I won't be embarrassed ... and it really does get easier at every step. You just have to push yourself over the starting point, and get the momentum rolling.
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After finals, during the holiday, I bugged out on my diet. I honestly did.
So this year... before I get to this same season, my goals are:
- To get my life organized by every detail.
- Last year I cleared out a ton, and worked with different systems to get organized.
- Master the diet, with 1 gallon of water and 2lbs veggies per day
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