I know I post a lot of my happy adventures here, but that does not mean that there isn't a lot of negatives, pain, and sorrow spinning in my life.
I have mentioned that I battle with ADHD, but I did not mention I also battle with depression, and OCD tendencies. The major things that I have learned in working through these is: 1) Find help- you cannot do it alone, 2) Do not allow yourself to stay stagnant in your situation. My mom helped me a ton with the second.
In not allowing yourself to become stagnant, this requires that you keep moving, pick yourself up, get out into the world, face your fears, etc. This is not easy, what-so-ever, but it really is better to light a candle than it is to stay sitting in the dark. It is like when I climb a mountain, and I am tired, and scared, and in pain, and it seems like the peak will never come. I have seen a lot of people turn around when they were able to continue, and then some who came to the realization that this is not meant to be conquered today. BUT they go back with a new plan to summit that mountain. I've been on that end, and I've been to points where I wanted to turn around, but my fear and determination kept me going. I've lost toenails, not been able to walk the next day, gotten heatstroke, but I made it, and I learned from it. And strength is such, that once you achieve it, your body doesn't easily go back to what it was before your stressed it.
So I write and post this, mostly for myself, as a reminder of what I seen, heard, done, and experienced. I look at it a lot when I start to get depressed, and it helps. It reminds me what God has brought me through.
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